Tuesday, 30 December 2008

Out With The Old, In With The New

As the end of 2008 becomes imminent, I am consciously thinking about new starts. What do I want to shed, what do I want to invite in and nurture in my life?

Big changes are afoot - both material changes and more subtle ones. I have finally filed for divorce - although I knew this was the action I would ultimately take, I didn't want to rush into it without sitting with the idea for a while first. It felt important to let the notion sink in, to initiate things from a place of groundedness and centredness. I have finally arrived at that place, and the wheels have been set in motion.

The kitchen at Halfway Up A Hill is at last being renovated - after eight and a half years of making do with the grotty badly fitted kitchen that was here when we arrived. Of course the reason for this sudden progress is so that the house will be more saleable when that time comes. But in the meantime I will relish having a halfway decent kitchen. Who knows - I may even become keener on cooking!

And I am getting a new car.

It's farewell to my faithful old Escort - sadly becoming too expensive to keep patching up - and hello to my new Suzuki Alto, which I will be getting in just over a week's time. This is a smaller car with correspondingly lower costs (cheaper tax, lower petrol consumption, and hopefully less running repairs). I am sad to see the Escort go, I have had it since 2001 and it has always been very reliable, starting first time every time even if it has been standing out in the cold rain for a week.

How strange that all this is coming at once. All of these things have been in the pipeline for a while, but somehow it feels like gears are changing, things are falling into place and I am accelerating into 2009.

Last year I wished fervently for 2008 to be an improvement on 2007, which I described as feeling like a constant uphill struggle. Strangely enough, although 2008 has also turned out to have contained more than its fair share of doom, gloom and disaster for me and my loved ones, somehow I feel that a corner has been turned, and life whilst not exactly a bed of roses is certainly not an uphill struggle.

This evening as I went out to shut away the chickens and geese, a beautiful sliver of new moon was gleaming in the sky. I kissed my hand to her, and wished for a bright future.

May we all have a bright and Happy New Year!


Livia Indica said...

I feel for you. My family and I have had an extremely difficult year as well. I guess I should say 'congratulations' on filing for divorce even though that sounds a little weird. Here's hoping 2009 is a better year for all of us!

Anonymous said...

Good luck and best wishes for the new year.

willow said...

Best wishes for 2009. This post sounded very positive, I hope all your changes go smoothly this coming year.
Have a good one!

Julia Guthrie said...

Just wanted to stop by & wish you all the best for peaceful & healing New year!
I have been lurking here in blog land for a few months & it's rude of me not to say hello! :)

Lots of luck with everything, & I hope this new year brings you lots of new opportunities!

Julia xx

Paul Rousselle said...

I certainly hope 2009 brings a lot more hope for.you.

Happy New year :)

Cottage Smallholder said...
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Cottage Smallholder said...

I have a deep sense that you will be happier in 2009-2010 then you've been for many years. Don't know why but I believe it.

Sometimes the worst things that happen often shift other potentials.

Happy New Year. Thanks for a great blog.