I always find a sadness in this time of year. Although the end of August is still technically summer, there is a sense that everything has peaked and it is the beginning of the end.
This year that sense is overwhelming as events in my private life mirror the seasonal shifts outside. It seems my marriage is over.
If you are shocked and surprised by that news, having read what I have written here previously about my relationship with T, then you are not alone. I was taken completely by surprise by his announcement that he was leaving me for another woman. As well as feeling sad, hurt, angry, confused and anxious, I am also feeling unbelievably stupid. How could I not have known?
I won't write more now. I just wanted to let anyone reading this know what was happening, and why I haven't blogged recently. I may not blog too much in the near future - or I may be on here every day venting and/or pondering this strange turn of events. Or distracting myself by writing about other stuff. I don't really know at the moment - I don't seem to know anything at all for certain right now. Except that summer's ending.